It's a...

It's a boy!!! We had our ultrasound today, and while I was still sincerely hoping for a girl, I woke up this morning and looked at Bob and said "I'm pretty sure it's a boy; I don't know why I feel that way, but I do..." I'm not really sad, maybe slightly disappointed as I've always had my heart set on a girl, but i still love our baby.

We found out the gender in the first few minutes of the ultrasound (which, if you haven't had a baby or not in recent years with all the ultrasounds, the midterm ultrasound is actually an anatomy scan looking to make sure your baby is developing appropriately- it looks at the heart, the kidneys, the spine, and measures almost every part of them), and spent the next hour and a half trying to get pictures during the first scan where our baby decided to take a nap and not cooperate. I eventually ended up doing squats and running in place to get baby to flip over for that 1 last picture of his spine.

We know he has 10 fingers (long fingers like mommy) and 10 toes, fabulous cheekbones and normal everything. The placenta was in a less than ideal place but we don't have placenta previa at this point so cross your fingers we never do.

Names. Well...i had never quite set on a boys name- in large part because i was hoping for a girl. I always said Sage was our baby name boy or girl, and i may stick to that, but i've had less than a day to reconcile the fact that it won't be tied to the little red-haired girl i've always pictured in my head. I also like the name Chade. Bob likes Revin, but I feel that it's a little too close to Kevin.

I love our baby boy so much already, but I imagine at some point the shock will wear off and I'll mourn in my own way for the little girl I always wanted. We've always planned on just 1 child and I have said before this that i wonder if i will change my mind if I don't get a girl. The truth is, i could keep trying and end up with a whole army of little boys and i'm certain i don't want a whole little army of any gender children, so we'll see. One little boy may end up being just what i never knew i wanted, or my heart might pine away for the little girl i've always dreamed of. We'll see...